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the Deep Ascent
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Because this is what it is, and I will only ever be what I am and can be.


I feel unlovely but maybe not unlovable?
In fearing to do either
I did neither
Inside outside upside downside
I read all my old diary entries. Browsed my poems. They all struck a chord within me; I saw how broken I was, the naive optimism I had...  This one in particular made me think.

I didn't think I'd shed another tear for you
Didn't think I had some left
I didn't think there was a drop
of feeling left inside
For this masquerade and empty phase
This black spot in my life

But today I shed a tear for you
Today I felt alive
'Cause living is the feeling
You get when you're being torn up inside
No worries though
I'm good
I'm good

I'm good at shutting out the pain
I'm good at making minds spin
Go round and round and round
Numbing my heart to sub-degree
No icicle was more cold
And moving on, giving more
My dear, you'll never know

But heck, what does it matter?
It's not like there's a point in loving you
It's an ego boost, a selfish need
something every person wants
It isn't earnt
It isn't gained
It's free of charge
when will they see?

My blood spills out, a poison
to my very veins
Bleed me dry
so I can learn
to give without an ache.

(Read it here)

I don't think I ever learnt to give
and now I fear it is too late.

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KariLiimatainen Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
:bow: for :+fav:
iyari Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
=) No problem
SeekHim Featured By Owner May 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer

I just wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday!

GOD bless you now and always.

John 3:16     


ShyGirl2008 Featured By Owner May 10, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday! :cake:
SeekHim Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Listen there’s something new that I’m trying to raise awareness on.
Could you please check out this entry? I'd appreciate it.
And spread the word if you can, it’s very important


GOD bless
John 3:16
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